After my last blog post, in which I outlined my plans for 2012, I was left with a feeling of sadness and restlessness. It didn’t take long to figure out why.
I wouldn’t be making any movies this year.
I am, frankly, tired of not making movies. I love writing, and I love exploring different mediums of storytelling, but film is and always will be my first love. It is, to me, the most interesting, challenging, and powerful means of storytelling. And I miss it. Back in high school I was constantly making movies, and I want badly to be at a similar place in my life once again.
And so.
1. I bought a book on cinematography and a book on lighting. Once school is out, at the end of March, I’m going to read these books, get myself some cheap lights and light stands, and teach myself lighting. I have an old, crappy, MiniDV camcorder that would never do for shooting anything I wanted to show to anyone on anything bigger than a laptop screen, but for doing some lighting tests, it will suffice.
2. I’m getting a tax refund this year, for the first time since, well, the last time I was in school. It’s going towards an HD movie camera, which I should be able to afford come May. By May, I hope to be done with the above-mentioned preliminary lighting tests, and also have some scripts for some short films written. Mood pieces, an extension of my at-home course in lighting in cinematography. Testing my ability to communicate not so much narrative, but emotion, via lighting and photography.
3. By the end of the year, I want to have shot and edited 4-6 of these short films with my new camera, and have a script for a feature ready to go into production for 2013.
This is all in addition to the writing projects I mentioned in my last blog post, but this has to take priority. This is my passion. Which I’ve always known, but laying out my plans for the year without any mention of filmmaking was an excellent slap-in-the-face reminder of that. Sometimes you need to stop and look at your life and think what the hell am I DOING? Deciding to quit school was part one of that, and laying out the above plan simply the logical progression.
So here we go! 2012 is going to be the year I start to teach myself filmmaking again.
Wish me luck!



